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Learning to Hear Everything

“People notice when he’s imitating a horn or a bass, but he’s also singing like water, like rain, singing like a piece of wood, or like a plate cracking on the floor . . . . These are all available to him. All these sounds, because he’s just always aware . . . . In life, he’s always observing things. [And] he doesn’t just see everything. He hears everything.” – Marcus Miller (on Al Jarreau, in Kurt Dietrich’s “Never Givin’ Up: The Life and Music of Al Jarreau,” p. 321)

When Jody and I moved to Malibu (the first time) in 2008, like countless others before and since, we experienced the welcome embrace of Hung and Corinne Le. We quickly felt like family as we shared many a meal in the Le home alongside so many others that received similar treatment. On one of our initial visits Hung said that when he first heard about this couple, “Al-and-Jody,” what he kept hearing was, “Al Jarreau.” So before long, we became known to the Le family as the Jarreaus, not the Sturgeons. It would crack us up when “the Jarreaus” would be invited over for dinner, or while there, hear Hung ask to get a picture of “the Jarreaus” before the evening ended.

You can imagine my reaction several months ago now when the opportunity to move to Wisconsin to work at Ripon College became a real possibility and I stumbled upon a list of the College’s famous alums and saw the name: Al Jarreau. I just had to laugh.

Everyone in my generation heard of Al Jarreau. Ten Grammy awards, sure, but it seemed like he was constantly on television for something or other during the Eighties: singing the theme song for the hit show, Moonlighting; wedging his contribution to the epic “We Are the World” performance between Willie Nelson and Bruce Springsteen; performing his hit song, “We’re In this Love Together.” Even I, a sports-obsessed teenager that paid little attention to the music industry, knew his name.

In our many moves, I developed a habit of reading some facet of an area’s history once we arrived. I read “The Age of Gold: The California Gold Rush and the New American Dream” by H.W. Brands when we lived in California. In Nashville, it was “The Children” by David Halberstam. In Illinois, it was “Life of Black Hawk” as dictated by the Sauk leader himself. Anticipating Wisconsin, I noticed someone had recently published a biography on Al Jarreau, and I knew that I had to track it down once there.

Well, I didn’t have to try very hard. On one of my first visits to First Congregational Church of Ripon, I happened to sit next to Kurt Dietrich, a retired music professor from Ripon College who decided to become Al Jarreau’s posthumous biographer in his retirement. And I soon learned that Professor Dietrich would give a presentation on his book at the Ripon Public Library. Jody and I not only attended but I also received an autographed copy of the book, which he graciously addressed to his “new friend Al.”

I finished reading it this morning and thoroughly enjoyed every page. Anyone with even a passing interest in Al Jarreau, or music in general, or stories of incredibly gifted human beings with fascinating journeys, will be glad that they tracked down a copy.

I also read Isabel Wilkerson’s “Warmth of Other Suns” recently, a brilliant history of The Great Migration of Black citizens from the American South during Jim Crow, so I recognized that Al Jarreau was yet another example of an enormously influential Black musician from places like Chicago (e.g., Nat King Cole; Sam Cooke; Quincy Jones) and Detroit (e.g., Aretha Franklin; Diana Ross; Stevie Wonder) whose very genius emanated from people having the courage to flee the racial terror of the South in hopes of better lives for their families. Jarreau’s family story included parents that left Alabama for Chicago with subsequent stops in both Flint and Indianapolis before eventually settling in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, where Al was born and raised.

Although my journey is so, so different, there were several personal connections in the book that made me wish that I had paid far more attention to Al Jarreau along the way. For starters of course, we both had unlikely journeys to Ripon College, but we also made major moves to Southern California that transformed our lives. I also smiled when I noticed that a musician named Willie Weeks played bass on Jarreau’s second album, and I remembered that it was Weeks who later in his career gave my childhood friend, Jon Conley, his big break in Nashville. I also learned that Jarreau’s last concert was in Austin, Texas, where my youngest daughter now lives, and sadly learned that when Jarreau went to the hospital with the illness that took his life in early 2017, he did so in Thousand Oaks, California, where our oldest daughter now lives.

But beyond the coincidences that provided small feelings of connection to this musical legend, I experienced a deeper connection that comes from the work of a good biographer like Professor Dietrich.

For as long as I can remember, I have had a million friends while still feeling a strong sense of loneliness that is hard to describe. I suspect that on a much larger level that describes the life of Al Jarreau.

Everyone felt drawn to Al Jarreau, but he never truly fit into a recognized box. He fit in everywhere, and nowhere. He had a smile and positivity that lit up wherever he happened to be, but he defied easy categorization. He was so loved at Ripon College, but he was nowhere near the typical Ripon College student. He was a phenomenal musical talent, but no one could decide if he was a jazz artist, or pop artist, or R&B artist. He was an incredible human being with extraordinary gifts that was one of a kind, which sounds like a compliment but might be easier to admire than to be.

What I learned about Al Jarreau the musician is that he had an incredible gift for live performance in part due to his magnetic personality, but also because of his unique improvisational ability. Professor Dietrich shared a story from tour director Jerry Levin about a concert in St. Louis in 1978: “Halfway through the concert, a severe thunderstorm materialized, and the power in the venue went out. Although crew and concert organizers went out to see about cranking up a generator and salvaging the concert, the power had gone out in that entire part of the city. As the promoters and Levin began negotiating about refunding ticket prices to the audience, Al started singing all alone on the stage. The band’s percussionist passed out instruments to band members. Audience members got out lighters and flashlights from their purses and backpacks, bathing the room with a kind of a warm glow. Al finished the set, singing seven or eight songs a cappella. At one point, he sat on the edge of the stage. Several rows back, there was a couple with a small child. The youngster was brought up to the stage, where he sat on Al’s knee, and Al sang directly to the boy. Levin finished the story by saying, ‘I don’t think anybody that was there will [ever] forget it.'”

I wasn’t there, but just by reading about it I don’t think I will forget it either.

But what showcased his improvisational abilities, as musician Marcus Miller described, was a special voice that could sound like anything and everything, which wowed his concert audiences. The quote from Miller near the end of the biography really struck me: Jarreau could do this especially well because he paid attention to everything. He listened to everything. He was fully and constantly aware.

That’s what was in my mind as I closed the book on the life of Al Jarreau this morning. I, too, would like to be fully aware, having learned the secret of how to listen to everything. I don’t have Al Jarreau’s unique voice, so I’m not referring to recreating actual sounds in a stage performance of course. No, I’m just imagining the magic of the self-aware life. Maybe it’s a foolish wish, but it sounds like it might even help with loneliness.

I’m glad that Hung Le refers to us as the Jarreaus. I’m glad that we moved to Ripon College and met Professor Dietrich so that I can feel a deeper connection to Al Jarreau through reading his life story. But mostly, I’m glad that all of the above has led me to commit to listening to everything better.

Listen & Respond

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We sang a cute little song in church when I was a child about rains coming down, floods coming up, and houses that went splat. The splat was easily the most fun part of the song, but when I experienced that reality as an adult it was far less entertaining. Victims of Hurricane Harvey are facing that same reality today.

My hurricane experience came at the same time of year as Harvey, and it was Labor Day weekend when the first large group of heroes arrived to give us hope. I suspect that has been the same experience for many in Texas. 

We only had a few negative encounters in the aftermath of the storm. Like a group bringing a personal photographer to document their own kindness. And like another insisting that we needed their massive clothing donation immediately even though we had no homes, much less closets. Oh, and every encounter with every level of government and insurance company was its own disaster.

But the biggest flood of all was the beautiful flood of kindness from individuals and churches from all over the world. It was overwhelming in the very best way, and it was our salvation. 

So I have two pieces of advice to share from personal experience:

First, although “news” is ever-changing by definition, remember that the needs will not go away quickly. Join in for the long haul. I love the first responders so much. And I have a unique respect for those who still came months later.

Second, give freely. Find an organization or individual that you trust, and then trust them. The victims know what they need. Listen first. Respond second. 

Losing everything in a hurricane is in retrospect, but only in retrospect, a strangely wonderful time in the history of our family due to the love that we witnessed and received. I pray that many in Texas will be able to look back with similar fondness someday.

A Personal Spiritual Retreat

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I’m the sort of person who doesn’t mind going to a movie alone.  That’s weird I know, but then again so am I.  All of the voices inside my head get along pretty well most of the time so the occasional time alone is positive more often than not.

My new preaching gig graciously allows me to attend some sort of conference each year, but since nothing particularly appealing fit into my calendar and since I never really had a chance to reflect prior to jumping from one job into another, I opted for a personal spiritual retreat this year—retreating today and returning on Friday.  I suspect that I will talk to a person or two along the way at a restaurant or convenience store, but the plan is to spend time alone in silence.  Listening to the sound of stillness.  Meandering on a couple of scenic runs.  Praying and meditating.  Reflecting and planning. Dreaming.  Preparing my mind, heart, and soul for a new year (as our church family marks time) that is rapidly approaching.

Utah is my chosen destination, partly because I have never been, partly because it is far enough away and yet not so far either, and partly because of a landmark there that may or may not have something to tell me about the sermon series I intend to deliver in the fall.  We’ll find out soon enough.

We are all different.  For some, such a week ahead may sound like torture, but I am almost giddy with excitement.  Who knows what might emerge when I get away from routines and responsibilities, meetings and appointments, emails and notifications long enough and far enough to take a deep breath and truly listen?

The Secrets of a Sacred Space

Stauffer“Let the site tell you its secrets.” — Christopher Alexander

I joke that my propensity to arrive early for absolutely everything is a sickness, but in reality it is a treasured quality since it reminds me of mom and dad.  Being early is my heritage.  With age, it seems that I am less impressed with my unique qualities and particularly value those characteristics that connect me to a larger story.

I arrive very early for work on Sunday mornings to prepare for our church’s collective time together, a couple of hours early in fact—and love it.  We decided to meet in stunning Stauffer Chapel this summer thanks to a brilliant suggestion from my friend, Sara, and the setting has made the early morning solitude particularly delightful.

I like the strange sensation of opening the door to discover that no one else is there and being the first to step inside.  I like turning on the lights and straightening the hymnals and removing the leftover trash from the pew racks.  I like arranging the podium and communion table just right and reviewing the sermon, imagining the congregation at breakfast preparing to join with me and with others.  I like propping open the doors and hearing the gurgling fountain outside and then returning to the deafening quiet inside and the intense feeling of anticipation. I like to notice the sun pierce through the massive stained glass spraying psychedelic graffiti all over the quiet sanctuary.

Famed architect, Christopher Alexander, argued that users of a space know more about their needs than the architect and wrote, “Let the site tell you its secrets.”  In my sacred Sunday solitude, I don’t seem to be able to articulate my needs, but it sure seems that the space has secrets to tell.  I listen each week and can almost hear them.  Maybe if I listen long enough?

In reality, I’m not sure that sacred spaces have actual secrets to tell.  But maybe the wonder that is found in showing up early to listen is secret enough.

See. Respect. Listen. Love.

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When Hurricane Katrina flooded our one-story house in 2005, it claimed treasured and irreplaceable items such as our wedding album and family videos while graciously sparing the crap in the attic that was there because we didn’t want it in the first place.  Gee, thanks.  My revenge came from unwittingly sparing a few boxes of personal mementos in my apparently waterproof office simply because we didn’t have room in the house.  I do my best work by accident.

Included in those mementos, believe it or not, was a college research paper that is now a quarter-century old, presented to Dr. Willard Gatewood at the University of Arkansas in 1991 and titled, “Arkansas Democrats in the Presidential Election of 1928.”  That paper was painstakingly typed on an actual typewriter (yes, boys and girls, a typewriter) and placed in a transparent plastic sleeve with a white binder with my social security number (ID number at the time!) emblazoned under my name on the cover page.  I kept the paper because I was proud of it and have a tiny problem throwing things away.

I remembered that paper last week and had to go for a trip down memory lane.

I don’t think I’m to blame for watching CNN last Thursday when I saw Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump laugh at each other’s jokes the day after trading verbal sucker punches and refusing to shake hands in their final debate.  Curiosity got the best of me.  It turned out that our nation’s top presidential candidates were at the Al Smith Dinner, an annual event hosted by the Archbishop of New York to raise money for needy children, and traditionally the last time presidential candidates share a stage prior to the election every four years.

It was the reference to Al Smith that led me to turn a closet upside down to find that old research paper.

Governor Al Smith of New York was the first Catholic to lead a major party ticket in a presidential election when nominated by the Democratic Party in 1928.  Smith chose Senator Joe T. Robinson of Arkansas as his running mate, the first southerner for a major party in that role since the Civil War, and Arkansas faced a dilemma: The heavily Democratic state had one of its own on the ticket, but Smith’s Catholicism was wildly unpopular across the state.  As a result, Protestant ministers in particular led anti-Smith campaigns that allowed the small contingent of Arkansas Republicans to pull up an easy chair while the Democrats worked both sides of the campaign.

In the end, the Smith-Robinson ticket still carried Arkansas and a handful of other states in the Solid South, but Herbert Hoover won the election in a landslide.  And then the stock market crashed, followed by a great depression and second world war and so on and so forth until I wrote a research paper that I can’t seem to throw away.

Today, it is hard to imagine passionate opposition to a presidential candidate simply because s/he is Catholic.  But it happened.  I wonder what research papers will be written by twenty-year-old students about the Election of 2016 decades down the road?

As Hillary Clinton closed her speech at the Al Smith Dinner, she reflected:

And when I think about what Al Smith went through it’s important to just reflect how groundbreaking it was for him, a Catholic, to be my party’s nominee for president.  Don’t forget – school boards sent home letters with children saying that if Al Smith is elected president you will not be allowed to have or read a Bible.  Voters were told that he would annul Protestant marriages.  And I saw a story recently that said people even claimed the Holland Tunnel was a secret passageway to connect Rome and America, to help the Pope rule our country. Those appeals, appeals to fear and division, can cause us to treat each other as the Other.  Rhetoric like that makes it harder for us to see each other, to respect each other, to listen to each other. And certainly a lot harder to love our neighbor as ourselves.